Sensitivity Issues

Well, we are 4 weeks and 3 days into the pregnancy per the Doctors. We know they add 2 weeks to it so really Cindy is only 2 weeks and 3 days along, since the actual conception of the baby. However, signs and symptoms of the pregnancy are already abounding. She is a wonderful wife and I am a very busy husband. I pastor a small inner-city church, run a business, and spend time with her. However, most of the time I am working or helping a church family. She does get some of my time but not as much as she would like. I would love to give her more time, however, I am busy and half the time I am not even close to being caught up. This morning I read an email blog from Steve Curington, the founder of Reformers Unanimous, and he said that many times we try to do all things. The Bible does say, "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me" (Philippians 4:13). But the emphasis is through Christ. Many times we think we can do all things. But no it is through Christ that all things can be done. We say we have too much to do, but if Christ gave us the responsibilities, then if we trust Christ, we can do all things through Him. I am unable and He is able. It is Christ which provides the strength. For me to even breath today is because Christ has given me life and allowed me to live today. But it is because of Christ that I do live. So through Christ I can do all things and Christ strengthens me!

Anyhow I do need to spend more time with Cindy. I am so very thankful she is expecting and we believe the Lord is going to allow this baby to be happy and healthy. I am trusting Him for it.

Baby!

It is 5:24 AM EST and I cannot go to sleep. I have been up since 3:40 AM due to Cindy waking me. She is 4 days late for her cycle and just took a pregnancy test. To her suprise and joy the test gave a positive readout for being pregnant. It actually is a new digital one that says "not pregnant" or "pregnant." We are both so happy. This is our second pregnancy. The first one ended in a miscarraige around the 6-8th week which was such a trial for us ... especially after trying for over 8 years before our first pregnancy. We know God is the one that gives and takes life. We are praying with all our heart that he allows the life He has given to come to a full term and be given the opportunity to serve Him on earth before entering Heaven. At 4 AM Cindy and I joined in prayer for our little baby. We have prayed for all the normal things like a safe delivery and healthy baby; 2 arms, 2 legs, all 10 toes and fingers... you know the drill. Then we prayed for the boy or girl to come to an early acceptance of Jesus Christ as Savior. Quite unconventional for most parents.. .but much more important than it even being born with good health... though we are still praying and even begging for a healthy, smart, cute, baby. I know Cindy will be an awesome Mom and I just pray I will be a good Dad. During our prayer we made note that we are sinful people given birth to another one or our kind that will also have a sin nature. With that in mind it is absured to think that we will be the first parents to never make a mistake. It would be prideful of us to think we could possibly be the best parents ever on this earth. I am sure every first time Mom and Dad think they will do everything right for once. I remember me thinking when I seen my neice or nephews disobey their Mom and Dad, that I would raise my children different... right! But that was foolish thinking. Every parent that really has a heart to do their best for their child... does and should think they will do everything right... but again we are just imperfect in our nature and thus are unable to be perfect in thought or deed. However, I pray that my child will be raised with a clear understanding of the Lord Jesus and that He died on the Cross for all people sins, and I pray the child accepts Christ as their Savior and lives fully for Him. As long as God answers that prayer than I will feel like I was a good father. Now if the Lord wills, I would love to teach my child how to ride a bike, fish, hunt (though I would need to know how to hunt first : ), love someone, be kind, be patient, and I am sure there are a hundred other things that I would love to teach and display through my own life to the benefit of my child. I am excited and know that even if the Lord chooses to take this one home before we do.... that again our life has been changed forever!